She Was Good for Nothing
by
Hans Christian Andersen
(1853)
The mayor stood at the open window. He
looked smart, for his shirt-frill, in which he had stuck a breast-pin, and his
ruffles, were very fine. He had shaved his chin uncommonly smooth, although he
had cut himself slightly, and had stuck a piece of newspaper over the place.
“Hark ’ee, youngster!” cried he.
The boy to whom he spoke was no other than the son of a
poor washer-woman, who was just going past the house. He stopped, and
respectfully took off his cap. The peak of this cap was broken in the middle, so
that he could easily roll it up and put it in his pocket. He stood before the
mayor in his poor but clean and well-mended clothes, with heavy wooden shoes on
his feet, looking as humble as if it had been the king himself.
“You are a good and civil boy,” said the mayor. “I suppose
your mother is busy washing the clothes down by the river, and you are going to
carry that thing to her that you have in your pocket. It is very bad for your
mother. How much have you got in it?”
“Only half a quartern,” stammered the boy in a frightened
voice.
“And she has had just as much this morning already?”
“No, it was yesterday,” replied the boy.
“Two halves make a whole,” said the mayor. “She’s good for
nothing. What a sad thing it is with these people. Tell your mother she ought to
be ashamed of herself. Don’t you become a drunkard, but I expect you will
though. Poor child! there, go now.”
The boy went on his way with his cap in his hand, while
the wind fluttered his golden hair till the locks stood up straight. He turned
round the corner of the street into the little lane that led to the river, where
his mother stood in the water by her washing bench, beating the linen with a
heavy wooden bar. The floodgates at the mill had been drawn up, and as the water
rolled rapidly on, the sheets were dragged along by the stream, and nearly
overturned the bench, so that the washer-woman was obliged to lean against it to
keep it steady. “I have been very nearly carried away,” she said; “it is a good
thing that you are come, for I want something to strengthen me. It is cold in
the water, and I have stood here six hours. Have you brought anything for me?”
The boy drew the bottle from his pocket, and the mother
put it to her lips, and drank a little.
“Ah, how much good that does, and how it warms me,” she
said; “it is as good as a hot meal, and not so dear. Drink a little, my boy; you
look quite pale; you are shivering in your thin clothes, and autumn has really
come. Oh, how cold the water is! I hope I shall not be ill. But no, I must not
be afraid of that. Give me a little more, and you may have a sip too, but only a
sip; you must not get used to it, my poor, dear child.” She stepped up to the
bridge on which the boy stood as she spoke, and came on shore. The water dripped
from the straw mat which she had bound round her body, and from her gown. “I
work hard and suffer pain with my poor hands,” said she, “but I do it willingly,
that I may be able to bring you up honestly and truthfully, my dear boy.”
At the same moment, a woman, rather older than herself,
came towards them. She was a miserable-looking object, lame of one leg, and with
a large false curl hanging down over one of her eyes, which was blind. This curl
was intended to conceal the blind eye, but it made the defect only more visible.
She was a friend of the laundress, and was called, among the neighbors, “Lame
Martha, with the curl.” “Oh, you poor thing; how you do work, standing there in
the water!” she exclaimed. “You really do need something to give you a little
warmth, and yet spiteful people cry out about the few drops you take.” And then
Martha repeated to the laundress, in a very few minutes, all that the mayor had
said to her boy, which she had overheard; and she felt very angry that any man
could speak, as he had done, of a mother to her own child, about the few drops
she had taken; and she was still more angry because, on that very day, the mayor
was going to have a dinner-party, at which there would be wine, strong, rich
wine, drunk by the bottle. “Many will take more than they ought, but they don’t
call that drinking! They are all right, you are good for nothing indeed!” cried
Martha indignantly.
“And so he spoke to you in that way, did he, my child?”
said the washer-woman, and her lips trembled as she spoke. “He says you have a
mother who is good for nothing. Well, perhaps he is right, but he should not
have said it to my child. How much has happened to me from that house!”
“Yes,” said Martha; “I remember you were in service there,
and lived in the house when the mayor’s parents were alive; how many years ago
that is. Bushels of salt have been eaten since then, and people may well be
thirsty,” and Martha smiled. “The mayor’s great dinner-party to-day ought to
have been put off, but the news came too late. The footman told me the dinner
was already cooked, when a letter came to say that the mayor’s younger brother
in Copenhagen is dead.”
“Dead!” cried the laundress, turning pale as death.
“Yes, certainly,” replied Martha; “but why do you take it
so much to heart? I suppose you knew him years ago, when you were in service
there?”
“Is he dead?” she exclaimed. “Oh, he was such a kind,
good-hearted man, there are not many like him,” and the tears rolled down her
cheeks as she spoke. Then she cried, “Oh, dear me; I feel quite ill: everything
is going round me, I cannot bear it. Is the bottle empty?” and she leaned
against the plank.
“Dear me, you are ill indeed,” said the other woman.
“Come, cheer up; perhaps it will pass off. No, indeed, I see you are really ill;
the best thing for me to do is to lead you home.”
“But my washing yonder?”
“I will take care of that. Come, give me your arm. The boy
can stay here and take care of the linen, and I’ll come back and finish the
washing; it is but a trifle.”
The limbs of the laundress shook under her, and she said,
“I have stood too long in the cold water, and I have had nothing to eat the
whole day since the morning. O kind Heaven, help me to get home; I am in a
burning fever. Oh, my poor child,” and she burst into tears. And he, poor boy,
wept also, as he sat alone by the river, near to and watching the damp linen.
The two women walked very slowly. The laundress slipped
and tottered through the lane, and round the corner, into the street where the
mayor lived; and just as she reached the front of his house, she sank down upon
the pavement. Many persons came round her, and Lame Martha ran into the house
for help. The mayor and his guests came to the window.
“Oh, it is the laundress,” said he; “she has had a little
drop too much. She is good for nothing. It is a sad thing for her pretty little
son. I like the boy very well; but the mother is good for nothing.”
After a while the laundress recovered herself, and they
led her to her poor dwelling, and put her to bed. Kind Martha warmed a mug of
beer for her, with butter and sugar—she considered this the best medicine—and
then hastened to the river, washed and rinsed, badly enough, to be sure, but she
did her best. Then she drew the linen ashore, wet as it was, and laid it in a
basket. Before evening, she was sitting in the poor little room with the
laundress. The mayor’s cook had given her some roasted potatoes and a beautiful
piece of fat for the sick woman. Martha and the boy enjoyed these good things
very much; but the sick woman could only say that the smell was very nourishing,
she thought. By-and-by the boy was put to bed, in the same bed as the one in
which his mother lay; but he slept at her feet, covered with an old quilt made
of blue and white patchwork. The laundress felt a little better by this time.
The warm beer had strengthened her, and the smell of the good food had been
pleasant to her.
“Many thanks, you good soul,” she said to Martha. “Now the
boy is asleep, I will tell you all. He is soon asleep. How gentle and sweet he
looks as he lies there with his eyes closed! He does not know how his mother has
suffered; and Heaven grant he never may know it. I was in service at the
counsellor’s, the father of the mayor, and it happened that the youngest of his
sons, the student, came home. I was a young wild girl then, but honest; that I
can declare in the sight of Heaven. The student was merry and gay, brave and
affectionate; every drop of blood in him was good and honorable; a better man
never lived on earth. He was the son of the house, and I was only a maid; but he
loved me truly and honorably, and he told his mother of it. She was to him as an
angel upon earth; she was so wise and loving. He went to travel, and before he
started he placed a gold ring on my finger; and as soon as he was out of the
house, my mistress sent for me. Gently and earnestly she drew me to her, and
spake as if an angel were speaking. She showed me clearly, in spirit and in
truth, the difference there was between him and me. ‘He is pleased now,’ she
said, ‘with your pretty face; but good looks do not last long. You have not been
educated like he has. You are not equals in mind and rank, and therein lies the
misfortune. I esteem the poor,’ she added. ‘In the sight of God, they may occupy
a higher place than many of the rich; but here upon earth we must beware of
entering upon a false track, lest we are overturned in our plans, like a
carriage that travels by a dangerous road. I know a worthy man, an artisan, who
wishes to marry you. I mean Eric, the glovemaker. He is a widower, without
children, and in a good position. Will you think it over?’ Every word she said
pierced my heart like a knife; but I knew she was right, and the thought pressed
heavily upon me. I kissed her hand, and wept bitter tears, and I wept still more
when I went to my room, and threw myself on the bed. I passed through a dreadful
night; God knows what I suffered, and how I struggled. The following Sunday I
went to the house of God to pray for light to direct my path. It seemed like a
providence that as I stepped out of church Eric came towards me; and then there
remained not a doubt in my mind. We were suited to each other in rank and
circumstances. He was, even then, a man of good means. I went up to him, and
took his hand, and said, ‘Do you still feel the same for me?’ ‘Yes; ever and
always,’ said he. ‘Will you, then, marry a maiden who honors and esteems you,
although she cannot offer you her love? but that may come.’ ‘Yes, it will come,’
said he; and we joined our hands together, and I went home to my mistress. The
gold ring which her son had given me I wore next to my heart. I could not place
it on my finger during the daytime, but only in the evening, when I went to bed.
I kissed the ring till my lips almost bled, and then I gave it to my mistress,
and told her that the banns were to be put up for me and the glovemaker the
following week. Then my mistress threw her arms round me, and kissed me. She did
not say that I was ‘good for nothing;’ very likely I was better then than I am
now; but the misfortunes of this world, were unknown to me then. At Michaelmas
we were married, and for the first year everything went well with us. We had a
journeyman and an apprentice, and you were our servant, Martha.”
“Ah, yes, and you were a dear, good mistress,” said
Martha, “I shall never forget how kind you and your husband were to me.”
“Yes, those were happy years when you were with us,
although we had no children at first. The student I never met again. Yet I saw
him once, although he did not see me. He came to his mother’s funeral. I saw
him, looking pale as death, and deeply troubled, standing at her grave; for she
was his mother. Sometime after, when his father died, he was in foreign lands,
and did not come home. I know that he never married, I believe he became a
lawyer. He had forgotten me, and even had we met he would not have known me, for
I have lost all my good looks, and perhaps that is all for the best.” And then
she spoke of the dark days of trial, when misfortune had fallen upon them.
“We had five hundred dollars,” she said, “and there was a
house in the street to be sold for two hundred, so we thought it would be worth
our while to pull it down and build a new one in its place; so it was bought.
The builder and carpenter made an estimate that the new house would cost ten
hundred and twenty dollars to build. Eric had credit, so he borrowed the money
in the chief town. But the captain, who was bringing it to him, was shipwrecked,
and the money lost. Just about this time, my dear sweet boy, who lies sleeping
there, was born, and my husband was attacked with a severe lingering illness.
For three quarters of a year I was obliged to dress and undress him. We were
backward in our payments, we borrowed more money, and all that we had was lost
and sold, and then my husband died. Since then I have worked, toiled, and
striven for the sake of the child. I have scrubbed and washed both coarse and
fine linen, but I have not been able to make myself better off; and it was God’s
will. In His own time He will take me to Himself, but I know He will never
forsake my boy.” Then she fell asleep. In the morning she felt much refreshed,
and strong enough, as she thought, to go on with her work. But as soon as she
stepped into the cold water, a sudden faintness seized her; she clutched at the
air convulsively with her hand, took one step forward, and fell. Her head rested
on dry land, but her feet were in the water; her wooden shoes, which were only
tied on by a wisp of straw, were carried away by the stream, and thus she was
found by Martha when she came to bring her some coffee.
In the meantime a messenger had been sent to her house by
the mayor, to say that she must come to him immediately, as he had something to
tell her. It was too late; a surgeon had been sent for to open a vein in her
arm, but the poor woman was dead.
“She has drunk herself to death,” said the cruel mayor. In
the letter, containing the news of his brother’s death, it was stated that he
had left in his will a legacy of six hundred dollars to the glovemaker’s widow,
who had been his mother’s maid, to be paid with discretion, in large or small
sums to the widow or her child.
“There was something between my brother and her, I
remember,” said the mayor; “it is a good thing that she is out of the way, for
now the boy will have the whole. I will place him with honest people to bring
him up, that he may become a respectable working man.” And the blessing of God
rested upon these words. The mayor sent for the boy to come to him, and promised
to take care of him, but most cruelly added that it was a good thing that his
mother was dead, for “she was good for nothing.” They carried her to the
churchyard, the churchyard in which the poor were buried. Martha strewed sand on
the grave and planted a rose-tree upon it, and the boy stood by her side.
“Oh, my poor mother!” he cried, while the tears rolled
down his cheeks. “Is it true what they say, that she was good for nothing?”
“No, indeed, it is not true,” replied the old servant,
raising her eyes to heaven; “she was worth a great deal; I knew it years ago,
and since the last night of her life I am more certain of it than ever. I say
she was a good and worthy woman, and God, who is in heaven, knows I am speaking
the truth, though the world may say, even now she was good for nothing.”
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